randomfixation


say cheese

Posted in random on September 25, 2007 @ 1:25pm

I took some photos with a great SLR camera on the weekend.

Can you say Flickr?

vanilla

Posted in random on September 18, 2007 @ 11:07pm

Actually, I feel nothing. Whatever momentary delusion I was under certainly doesn’t reflect any ongoing state of being. Must have been a glitch.

I could, of course, be angry. Recently I’ve been given plenty of reason to be viciously enraged. But I’m not. I could be annoyed senseless at certain people or things. There’s ample justification. …Nope, not. I could rail against the situations and circumstances, fly off the handle, be downright mean. Perhaps that would fix a few things. At least things would change.

There’s just nothing there. It’s easier not to feel them at all.

Vanilla is a flavour, after all…

unbridled again

Posted in random on September 18, 2007 @ 12:18am

Its freedom curtailed no longer:
Long subdued, now burst free!
Eager optimism, unrestrained;
Surprisingly alive…

in brief

Posted in random on September 6, 2007 @ 4:00pm

It is a peculiar grief to feel like you’ve lost something you never had;
to hope that all is not lost, and that not all hope is lost too…

romanticised ideal

Posted in random on August 6, 2007 @ 6:39pm

I have said goodbye to some
In the last short while
Bid farewell to one without
So much as a smile

Overwhelmed by the magnitude
Of all I had and lost
And what I wouldn’t do
To have them back at any cost

But perhaps indeed just some of these
Were only in my mind
Dreams and visions, hopes and plans
Each precious in their kind

Transfixing on the size and scale
Of all to be achieved
Immobilised and so unsure –
How can I best succeed
When all around is dismal past
And romanticised ideals?
Struggle through the joy and pain:
How should they really feel?

And now, quite unwillingly,
I’ll acquaint myself again
With solitude and distance
Far more foe than friend