randomfixation


intermission

Posted in random on April 20, 2007 @ 6:07pm

Allow me to tell you the story of a fantastic musical event which took place only a few nights ago. A great team of willing volunteers came together to put on an event which surpassed all expectations. The night drew to a close and all was well. But a blackness crept into the room and lingered, seeking to devour a poor victim.

Okay, enough melodrama. The blackness was actually black shade cloth, which was lying on the ground waiting to be folded up. And of course, I was the one who managed to slip on it and fall very hard on my left arm.

It broke.

So now I am sitting at home, unable to play piano, type with both hands, drive myself anywhere or even stretch my left arm.

This is an unusual kind of life for me. I am so used to being able to do whatever I want in my own capacity, but now I am curtailed. In truth, it is quite frustrating – everything that I would choose to do to relax or unwind or relieve stress seems to require the use of my left hand. My entire life has had to be rescheduled, and not without some pain.

This is a six-week intermission.

one and/or the other

Posted in random on April 7, 2007 @ 6:22pm

As I sit here and pen (key?) this entry, I am no more than 15 metres from the water’s edge. I drink plunger coffee and my favourite music plays in the background. I am relaxed, and much more so than I have been in recent memory. In the last two days I have done little and thought much. It is good for the soul.

There are two words which I have been dwelling upon during my random moments of reflection: satisfaction and fulfilment. Think for a moment and see if you can decide – can you have only one and not the other? Perhaps at some occasions you can have both? Ah, but I’m getting ahead of myself…

I find that I experience moments of satisfaction, but I always desire ongoing fulfilment. Events and circumstances can be momentarily satisfying, but if that is all they leave me longing for more. In stark contrast, normal life may be thrilling or mundane, but if it fits into the definition of fulfilling it brings me great comfort.

Life is more than fleeting satisfaction. Life is both one and the other.