randomfixation


what i think i might want just isn’t

Posted in random on June 4, 2006 @ 12:53am

It takes all within to stop me
From breaking all the rules
And doing something rather rash
And fun and better than the mundane
It seems that life’s become of late

Hope
Options
Possibilities
Dreams
Whimsical things

Too hard to calculate
Impossible to feel the right way
When what I think I want is far off
If it is anywhere at all
And clouded by the chance it might not be

Futures
Longings
Chance
Desires
If, maybe or when?

And what’s the point of it
If selfishness and pride and arrogance are
All that I’m really holding on to
And everything needs to change before
I’d be even slightly impressed?

That’s just tonight
Five hours’ unconscious bliss until
It’s done again tomorrow
And again tomorrow
And again tomorrow

And
Again…